Possibly pregnant after 2 losses

[Morgan89]

Hi I'm 19 years old and I haven't ever posted on these forums before but I am probably pregnant and I don't know how I feel about it.
I had a miscarriage at 5 weeks last August and another miscarriage at 14 weeks last year. The second one was incredibly traumatic because I was so far along they had to induce labour and I was in the maternity ward with all of the other women delivering their babies. I only recently found out that the baby died because they had Down's syndrome.
I've been finding it hard to deal with the fact that I'm young but I desperately want to have children, I'm in a great relationship with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years but it's really hard to talk about it with him. I just really needed to get this off my chest as in the last two weeks I've had awful morning sickness which is exactly what happened last time so I am pretty sure that I'm pregnant.
I don't want to have another miscarriage I don't think I could handle another one.
Anyone that has had a miscarriage and then carried another pregnancy to term I would love to hear your story.
Thanks for listening

[foreva*your*mummy]

Hi Morgan,
This must be a scary time for you, have you taken a HPT or is it the symptoms?. I had my DS then a Miscarriage then another DS, I am also pregnant with out 3rd little man and he is healthy. I dont have any advice but fingers crossed for you. hopefully it will be fine xoxo

[Berry1]

Hi Morgan, I am so sorry for your losses hun, its a terrible thing to go through. I too lost a baby, at 19wks and had to be induced, which isn't easy seeing other babies in the maternity ward and walking out without one I am still ttc again, but there are a lot of women on here who have had losses and have gone on to have healthy babies, so I am sure it will be the same for you. If you are pg again, my best advise is to ensure you get great medical care from the beginning. Given you lost your second baby to a chromosome problem (so did I), you may want to speak to the hospital / OB about the best course of action. It may help you to have a 'plan' of what you are going to do for peace of mind if anything else. Take care of yourself

[Morgan89]

Thanks for your replies even just hearing from other people makes it easier to deal with. I haven't taken a pregnancy test yet as it is a bit early but when I had morning sickness with my last pregnancy it started pretty well straight away after I would have ovulated. The nausea feels exactly the same and even though it is a little scary I really am hoping that I'm pregnant. Fingers crossed.
I hope all of your future pregnancies go well.

[AngelRomansMum]

Hello Morgan,

I'm very sorry for the trauma you went through, and im sorry you had to go through 2 losses, i know the traumatic feeling being in the maternity ward having to listen to other women give birth to live babies, i had a few rooms near me where i heard babies crying and it triggered off some emotions and i had to put up with it.

I lost my son, Roman at 20 weeks and 1 day, on 3rd May,know that your angel is at peace and that i am thinking of you. *hugs*

Even though the next pregnancy will be hard for you and worrying, i hope its a successful one and that you dont go through this again!

I will check back and check what the outcome is, i wish you all the best, and hope the morning sickness doesnt get to bad.

[Morgan89]

Thanks for your reply.

One of the hardest things was that I had an ultrasound at 11 weeks 3 days and the baby had a strong heartbeat but when I found out that I had miscarried at 14 weeks they said that the baby had actually died only a few days after I had the ultrasound. I just couldn't get over the fact that I had been thinking I was pregnant for almost 3 weeks and my baby had died.

They should really have somewhere where people can go to deliver their angel babies that isn't right in the middle of a maternity ward I think it made it much harder than it should have been.

Morning sickness keeps getting worse so I don't know if that is good or not?

[Miss.B]

Hi Morgan,

I'm so sorry for your losses hun, big hugs. I can imagine how scared you must be, but I wish you all the very best in your pg and know that everthing will most likely turn out OK. It's so hard not too worry, but try to take one day at a time and invest in the power of positive thinking! I will be trying early next month, and after a late loss myself, am scared out out of my head, but I will try to relax as much as possible as hope for the best!

Good luck hun.

Beata xxx

[Morgan89]

It turns out I was not pregnant as I just got my period but I can't stop crying it feels like it has happened all over again. I hate thinking I was pregnant and then having it ripped away.

[Miss.B]

Hey Morgan, I'm so sorry sweetie . I know how hard it is to long for a baby, but at the same time be scared out of your mind as you've experienced the worst possible pain of losing a baby and being so afraid of it happening again. I think this fear will live with us for a long time, but such are the shoes we walk in, we are no longer naive of being pg, we are always on the look out for something to go wrong again.
I think we have to put more faith in our bodies, as I believe they are an amazing thing, and chances are next time we'll be OK.
Honey, talk to your doc next time about wanting to fall pg again, he might put you on some special pg vitamins etc. I would also very much recommend a grief councillor as they can really help you to overcome your fear of falling again, and restore your faith in yourself again! I have been seeing a psychologist since my own loss, and they are not cheap, but I know there is some great free councelling like SANDS or Sids and Kids.
Sending you many hugs and thinking of you xxx