Aries, I am so sorry and saddened by your loss of baby Alexander. Thank you for sharing your story hun, I know it's not easy. I too, lost my little son at almost 21 weeks last year, I still miss him everyday and feel like a big part of me is missing.
I wasn't fortunate to have a lot of family support when I lost Joshua, so I am so glad that you did, as that is so very important. Allow yourself to grieve now hun, and take as much time as you need. Grieving is such a different experience for everyone, it often comes in waves of lows and highs. One day you feel like digging yourself a small hole and never come out of it, and the next day you feel like there is so much to live for and so much hope. With every passing day, it does get easier, but you'll never forget your beautiful angel.
Good luck with TTC in the coming months, there is a great thread about TTC after late loss, and the girls there are so caring and understanding.
Take care hun
Beata xxx