Recurrent Miscarriage Dilemma!

Hi ladies,

I have come across your posts after looking for someone who knows what we are or have been through. It is really reassuring reading your posts and seeing pregnancies and TTC's continuing. And to know I am not the only one that as soon as they see the lines appear on the test start freaking out! ;)

I am currently going through my 4th miscarriage and needed to take the day off work just to have some me time...I tend to keep everything to myself which I know is not good but noone really understands. Also three of my friends at work are all pregnant (which is great) it just makes it hard sometimes...and lonely.

I have been on an early pregnancy monitoring this time and was given progestrone pessaries (mmm yucky) to take...but my last blood test said the levels were dropping again so the news is not good. I have another blood test to do on Sat to confrim and then will see what I have to do from there. They tend to let things go naturally which takes my body ages to get back to normal, once it is I am an the easy 28 day cycle and have no trouble TCC. With the next birthday coming up and age on my mind I start to freak out a little too!

My specialist has given me all the blood tests I can think off and they have come back fine and hubby has been tested. I have been to acupuncturists, naturopaths etc, I just wish there was an answer out there.

Anyway just wanted to say, thanks for sharing, it makes it not so lonely out there xox;)

I have seen some suggestions on the Alan Beer book so I'm going to track a copy down, seen the info on this site and might even look into Dr Sacks. If anyone has any other ideas/suggestions...

Hi Ladies,
Just a quick post to see how is everyone going? Long time no hear, I hope everything is fine with everybody and your all enjoying your long weekend. Dory and Dexy are probably sidetracked from feeling the little bundles moving around :D

Hope everyone is well.

Nice of you to drop by kekepania, sorry it doesn't seem to be working out for you at this time.

Take care.

kekepania - I am so dumbstruck to read that you have the courage to post, during your miscarriage. I am so so sorry that you had the endure the pain again.

I don't have too many other suggestions apart from what you would have read inthis thread - there is a link to tests that are likely to be relevant on a post by Inanna. I did post the link but can find it again and post it if you need it.

I say a second opinon can never hurt. I think of it as "more big brains thinking about the issues". It is hard to ask for a second opinion, but if you are comfortable with your Dr, then explaining it in terms of collaboration, usually makes something more difficult more management. Besides if your Dr is a good one, they will accept your desire to seek out more information.

There is hope, just some of us have to work harder to hold on to it. Can you let me know how you go?

Gemini - I just got sidetracked actually having someone at home to talk to ( apart from the fur babies) over the weekend. I hardly ever post on weekends, as I am too busy talking to DH. Poor man, I think he might sneakily enjoy going to work to get some peace. I even shocked myself over the weekend at the amount of talking I did! Something exciting for DH this week, he is taking delivery of some new mobile phone that he is excited about. Doesn't mean much to me, but it's nice to see him excited about something. I am sure I will have to endure lots of exicted demonstrations and explainations, but I am sure I can manage. He manages to look interested in things I am excited about so I guess its my turn!

How are you doing?

Dexy? How are you? You must be 14 weeks by now?

All good here. I think I have felt some changes in how the baby moves. Less like frenetic spasms and more distinctive movements.... 19 weeks tomorrow. I am excited and more scared too. Can't wait to enter brave new world of pregnancy that I am yet to experience - 22 weeks and beyond! But scared too that I won't get there. I have my next scan at 19 weeks 7 days, which is how far along I was when Sophie entered the world. Just taking it day by day, like always. Inching forward.

Helllloooo Ladies!

How are we all doing?...

Kekepania - Welcome to the thread. I hope you find it the wealth of information & comfort I have & still do. The past posts & the girls seem to have certainly thrown some ideas your way, I'm ure you will find that a huge relief & we are always, always here to help and share x

Gem - Well fever long gone - Think I must have had a virus of some sort. I have 3 (NOT 1!) yucky sores on my lip to prove it. Eeew! Things with BF seem to have settled. It's hard with her livng in another state. Prior to her moving we spoke every other day - most times for no reason, just than we could. Now I only get a call when I am 'needed' to fix others problems or reassure them. Frustrating to say the least, but it is what it is & I just have to deal with that in the most plesant way possible guess.
And YES I am anxiously awaiting movements! I felt something distinctivley different while eating dinner Sat evening, but it must be far too early to be anything exciting. So I am just waiting and waiting and waiting....

June good news?!?! WOWOWOWOWOOW! Oh love, I so dearly hope so! Cn it please be June already?? Lol. Sending those positive vibes right back at cha!

Dory - Don't be scared! Be strong! If ANYONE in this world can do it - ITS YOU!
Funnily enough I went back in time for a re-read of our thread not long ago & was completley re-inspired after feeling my flattest. I know how unfair life has been & the horrific sadness you have had to suffer, but please remind youself of how far you have come! Not how far you have to go. Go back & read... & be proud & be excited.You are day by day inching forward as you said, but over time - You have come along in leaps & bounds!

Well 14w 2d - Got a call from the hospital today & will have my first midwife / hospital check in appointment this coming Monday morning. I'm confident that all is well - I have a belly twice the size I expected it would be to be perfectly honest! Wondering when to tackle the bubs room, will probably make a decision after Monday actually...

I'm OVER work/working. Its leaving me brain dead & clock watching. Oh well, 15 weeks to go! Half way there!

So, how was everyones long weekend? Have you all heard the rubbish about Melbourne Storm? Salary cap breach - Thats putting it lightly!It was 1.7 million at first report for goodness sake! & an AFL player in posession of cocaine! Looks like sport is cursed with bad media at the minute or should I say bad eggs!

Well darlings, hope all is well - Sending love everyones way & will call back soon x

Oh Dexy. So good to hear from you. You are inspiring - thankyou for the words of inspiration and support. I will go back and read.

Glad you are over your fever but blah about the cold sores. I just hate being sick, in any form, it's sooooo inconvenient. I had the squirts from about lunch time til about 4pm but it seems to have eased and I am now ravenous.I actually thought I was safe and wanted to go to local video store ( it's $ Tuesday) but I got as far as the car and had to walk quite quickly back inside the house. Luckily I didnt get any further than that! It would have been really inconvenient! Oh well, it's still cheap Tuesday, maybe DH can take me later tonight, but I don't get to go, there's always tomorrow.

Sorry to hear that work is such a drag. So you're giving up work at 29/30 weeks? Good call.

I am excited for you for Monday! Less than a week.

About a baby room. DH and I am are just slackers, we leave most things til the last minute and are likely to do so this time. Well I suppose, we have already repainted..... we know what furniture we'd like, it's just a matter of getting it. We have some baby clothes already, I can't help myself and just buy some every so often. MIL is making cot sheets ( she's an awesome sewer... not like me). We need to get blockout curtains, and ideally I would like new carpet. But then again, maybe just get old carpet cleaned and wait to see whether we have a reflux baby or a puker before we get new carpet.... :) I have most of the things I need, except for creams and lotions.

Do you think you are going to have a baby shower?

It's something I have been thinking a lot about and I think I have decided I would like one after the baby is born, but than again, how exciting is it to have all your girl /women friends together to celebrate the impending birth of your baby.... maybe I can have both? Nothing wrong with being greedy about wanting to celebrate baby's arrival. I read a great idea about "gifts" for a baby shower - ask guests to bring along two pieces of paper - on one write down parenting advice and on the other the person makes a committment on how to help the new baby/parents. In my circumstances, where I am more keen to have a shower after baby is born, this seems like a nice way to involve my support network, but also not make them feel like they have to work out for too many gifts.

Anyway, better go and talk to DH, he's just home from work, and despite the squirts, I am still ravenous.

WooHoo... things are coming along quite nicely. I was sooooo happy to log on tonight and find that both you lovely ladies had been to visit and left a post informing everything is going well with your pregnancy, not so much with colds etc unfortunately.

I'm so happy I could dance (but I don't dance lol)

Sorry Dexy, didn't realise your BF was in another state :shakehead: I'm such a dufus sometimes!! But glad to hear it's settled a bit for you. I think you are doing an awesome job staying positive about it all. Especially while recovering from a fever. I'm glad your feeling a bit better, take it easy on yourself with work! It sounds like your looking forward to the time off, and who can blame you. It can be hard to keep it going with work, but you are strong and you obviously know how to stay postive, thats what matters, if you can stay positive, everything else will fall into place.

14 weeks, 3 days :dance: ...and a baby bump!! :clap:

Dory where's your ticky thingy? I can't keep up without it lol I'll hopefully be asking you ladies about it when the time comes for me, I don't know how they work!

Dory I hope your feeling better. I had to spend a lot of time in the loo yesterday too. Not nice. But today was when I got the tummy pains :(
Hope you managed to go out to get a movie. What movie did you see? Avatar is coming out on DVD tomorrow!
Baby Shower, so exciting, I say go for it, then you can do it all over again after birth. Well, you know people are going to shower you all with gifts after bubs has arrived, people can't help themselves when a baby arrives :D so I say have one before hand too. Bring on those positive vibes. Go ahead and celebrate!

AFM Think we may have missed the boat this month... I just got this feeling that June maybe our time, so we'll wait and see. I'm actually due now, but nothing yet. I took a test this morning - only because I am impatient and hoping for some luck, but at this stage it says no. I'll wait another couple days and re-test if nothing happens. I'm not use to all this going on with my body. I have had tingly breasts and becoming a little moody. Before I fell pregnant last time I had an IUD for years, which took the periods away completely and I had no moodiness or anything else. When I had the IUD removed I went onto the pill for 1 month, then the next month fell pregnant. So I am not up with all the signs and symptoms, or the forum abbreviations, even though Dexy gave me them and I saved them to my desktop, I still get confused, I keep seeing new ones like AF ??? So.... looking forward to the start of winter. Maybe some good news on my birthday :pray:

Anyways,
I'm so glad to hear you lovely ladies are doing well, aside from your colds etc, it's an exciting time and the positive vibes are jumping off the page, it's great to see. I feel priviliged to come on here and follow your journey. Keep up the good work.

Look forward to hear again soon! Take care ladies.

Gemini - poor blossom - did you end up with gastro? I hope not. I think mine was either mild and over in 1/2 a day ( unlikely, not enough other symptoms, I did feel nauseated around dinner time, but about an hour after I ate I felt much better. doesn't seem like gastro to me). I actually think it was something I ate having an unfortunate effect.

Sometimes I used to get the squirts before AF ( aka period or aunt flow hence AF) was due, including cramps. But not all the time. I think I would get sore breasts, actually I remember getting them. Again not all the time. I seem to get headaches, more saliva, metallic taste in my mouth, tender breasts all before a BFP. This time I also got super sensitive nipples but not in a nice or sexy way, it's actually painful!

Hopefully when you test next you'll get a sneaky BFP but if not - hoping for June!

Thanks for dropping in an asking after us. It is so sweet. Big hugs :comfort:

Oh about the ticker. I have been really worried that as soon as I change my signature that it applies the new signature to all my posts. I read the forum guidelines for tcc and loss threads as strictly no pregnancy tickers, so I never enabled it becuase it applied to all of the past ones. I tried a couple of times to make it not happen but couldn't. I ended up emailing the mods who said it was ok if the signature applied retrospectively but that it needed to be turned off in all current posts. I got that yesterday, so today I can introduce my new ticker..... will do it soon. :dance:

There I did a dance for you. I am not a dancer either, but when no one is watching, I might do a little dance..

Dexy - glad to hear that things with your BF are settling down. Sorry that you feel like its one way traffic though at the moment. I know what that feels like and its tough.

Kepekana - how are you doing?

Hey,

Hows everyone?
Thought I would drop in for a quick one. As I predicted, It wasn't our month this month, but although its not our time just yet, I am still excited because it could mean that yesterday is the first day of our next pregnancy ! !
AF... still confuses me lol, I know you tried to explain Dory and I have thought about it, but I don't know where aunt flow comes from. I've never heard of that expression, Everytime I think of aunt flow, I wonder what has my aunt got to do with it lol. I must be living under a rock lol Anyway, started spotting couple hours after my last post, next day was full on and still going strong, so I guess my body is back into some sort of routine about it all.
Still not sure 100% if my feeling about June means that we will have some good news in June or if it happens in June therefore find out in July? Only time will tell.

Still no sign of that ticker Dory, I'm waiting patiently !

Take care ladies!

Hi Girls!

Thought I better get in to say hi, glad I did! So much to catch up on already! Quite the lttle thread we are hey...

Dory - Please don't thank me for my words - It is my absoloute pleasure to return the favour, you have so many times paid me ;) I hope the squirts have buggered off,leaving you alone you poor love. I remember taking DS to the vid shop once years ago when he was not 100% - While browsing titles I heard from the kiddy section, "I think I did a wet fart" loud enough that made me turn bright red! & exit the store rather quickly with poor little DS none the wiser about the fact that the whole world had heard him! Funny stuff really.
Yep, pullin the work pin @ 30 weeks! Have actually just decided to cut back to 2days a week now too. I'm just running on empty & really lacking drive (very abnormal for me) Pregnancy aside I just have my hands so full & I guess there has never been a better time to take a break. I have been back at work since DS was just tiny & worked really hard to get us by for a lot of years, so to hell with it - It's only money!
Great to see you have a vision for the baby room! Even if its not a work in progress yet, you know what you want & thats the hardest part I think! There is so much on the market to choose from?!? Oh, and can yousend me MIL when you have finished? Lol, I have some sheets I need hemmed & I'm hopeless with a sewing machine.
Baby Shower? YES! We have decided to have a co-ed BBQ at home with our best friends around us. You can certainly have both parties if you wish! Welcome parties are much more heard of now than previously & the taditional shower can be a lovely memory maker. Go for it Dorz!
Big milestones oming up for you too hey... Thinking of you all the time & hope you are filled with excitement & hope x

Gem!
Never mind about BF! Lol, all seems to be well atm. She is coping as well as can be expected and although there are still akward moments - I just deal with them as best as I can. Sorry to hear its not your month :comfort: I'm thinking of you love & sending all the best vibes i the world your way! I can't wait to hear of a BFP sometime really soon!!!
Fingers crossed it's June! & thanks for calling in - Its lovely to get your posts :)

AFM - 15 weeks, booking in appointment in the morning (12 hours exactly!) excited, nervous, nervous, excited. Belly quite noticeable :bellyrubs:! Lady at DS footy club actually asked me today of I was preggo! That's game I recon - I was almost tempted to say no - just to see her reaction lol. Na, lovely lady & I certainly wasnt offended at all.

Well hope life is kind to you all ladies! Thoughts are with those that we havent seen on the thread of late too x

Dex

Sooooo.....
ladies,
How's it all going?
Mrs Dex how did your appointment go? I'm receiving all those positive vibes and I am adding more and sending them to you and to Dory!

Hope everything is well for both of you and the ones close to you!

AFM.. I keep getting these sinus headaches, I never had them before a couple weeks ago. Hmmm strange.

I was meditating the other night, as I like to do whenever I can when it's quiet in the evening! The strangest things have been happening. I was thinking about Jayden and focussing my thought on the love I have of him and always will. I received a light touch on a little section of my lip. Was he giving me a kiss? I can only wish it was!! It was a pleasant surprise either way.

Take care, I'll come back again when I have a little more time, at the moment, I have to get to the doctor for another appointment for my daughter!

Dexy - how did your appointment go? 15 weeks is awesome.

Good idea to slow down at work. Not that I feel guilty about my work loads previosly, but in contrast to my experience now, I would have felt like I wasn't always running on empty if I had slowed down a little. Like you said, only money. Work will always be there.

Gem - I do honestly beleive it was Jayden giving you a kiss. I am not particularly spiritual but there are just some moments in life that are to special, and for you that was one. What a beautiful experience to have.

I was having a really tough time after Sophie died and one night I had a dream that I was breast feeding her. It was such a beautiful dream, and when I woke, for a while I didn't realise it was a dream, but then when I did, I was so touched with its beauty, rather than the sadness of the reality. The beauty of that dream helped me so much. I hope your Jayden's buterfly kiss helps you too.

AFM - very exciting developments here. On Monday night Dh felt the baby kick, not just move, for the first time in any of our pregnancies. It was just the most awesome moment. I had been waiting with a lot of anticipation of DH being able to experience it but didn't expect it until a bit later, let alone just before 20 weeks. His face was jus priceless - joy, wonder and completely awestruck. He didn't know whether to jump for joy and keep his hand on my belly for more. it was truly a magical moment. A really good lead up to the scan the next day.

Scan went really well. I was more anxious than I realised ( wondered if I had the squirts again, but the urge passed aftger we saw the baby in the scan....so anxeity it was). It was awesome. No bad news, all good. Baby was very active so the scan went for longer which meant more time to look at bubs. There was a big ole yawn, hands up to the face, kicking, turning, squirming and even a "kung fu panda" karate chop move. No waving, well not that we saw. It was so exciting for me to actually feel the baby moving and seeing the movements on the scan. The sonographer was really good too, she had had a loss at 19 weeks, so we were able to talk about it both of our experiences, which most sonographers don't want to do.

Baby has been moving fairly consistently since Monday, in more definite and discernable movements rather than just the flutters.

My mum has been visiting for a few days and hence my abscence from BB. It was so nice to have her visit, but I was so tired last night I was asleep by 8.30pm. Unheard of for me! I did wake at 11.30pm though and spent a few hours awake ( knitting - my mum taught me) but the sleep I had for the first few hours was just so deep and refreshing. I feel so much better today.

I am loving the cooler weather - cats are way more snuggly - and it is so much nicer to snuggle with DH under the blankets and make DH late for work by pleading "just one more minute...". Although the little heater inside means I hardly feel the cold and hardly need any blankets.

Anyway, I could go on for ages. It is so nice to feel some hope, just genuine hope and happiness rather than the stuff I force on myself to get through. I don't want to let these feelings go.

Dory, it's so wonderful to hear from you that everthing is going so well. I had goosebumps reading through your post. I'm so happy for you. I can imagine your Hubby feeling the bubs, awesome moment, i'm so happy that you have shared this with us. I really can't tell you how happy I am. I've never met you IRL, but... wow, just amazing!
I had a little giggle here to myself when I read what you wrote about the mornings. LOL My Hubby has to get up earlier than I do, and I like to get up with him so I can spend time with him before he has to leave, but I'm not really a morning person. If I am lucky enough to be awake before he gets out of bed, I am the same as you, I request the extra minute. Usually though, I sleep through and he will tell me once he is dressed that he has to go to work soon. I will moan at him, say NOOOOO, call out to him, then hold up my arms expecting a snuggle. Sometimes he says that I talk to him in the morning in my sleep, and I don't even know about it because I'm still fast asleep.
Sounds like you have been enjoying the time with you mum. I have been meaning to get my mum to teach my how to use a sewing machine. I use to work her old one but that was years ago and I have forgotten it all now. Be great to learn it all over again.

Anyway, I better go, Hubby wants me to move so he can do his footy tips, so I'll call in again soon and hopefully Dexy has been in and let us know how she is doin!

Take Care xx

Happy Mothers Day!

Ladies, I'm quickly throwing together a late dinner after a super super busy day. But I just wanted to drop in, if only for a second to wish you all a Happy Mothers Day! I hope that you each had a special moment or 2!

Will call back for lengthy post tomorrow;)

Dex.

Yes... Happy Mothers Day!

Mrs Dex how did you post? I had an email saying the forum was going to be down! Looks different in here now. I hope you had a wonderful mothers day and got spoilt rotten :D
I had a good day, although breakfast was a quick one before soccer, we had relies up in the afternoon and I got out of cooking :dance: and the crows topped it off with winning their first game this year!

Dory it's wonderful to feel as though our baby angels are with us isn't it. Since Jayden left us, I read a book called 'Journey of the Souls' plus many others, I think that it helped me to process my thoughts and gave me a lot of strength when I thought all was lost. I have had other experiences too, I think I touched on that in another thread. Without reading those books I doubt I would be where I am now emotionally.

Well today I get to spend the day with my Mum. I like it when we can get together while the kids are at school, we can actually hold a conversation together lol We have already decided on some retail therapy, we both spend so much time avoiding it. She will be here right after the kids go to school so we can drive to the nearest shopping mall.

I'm not sure about calculating where I am at with my cycle... I guess it's about 2 weeks after AF starts that one ovulates. I have been trying to watch for temperature changes. Hubby says I was like a furnace the last couple nights. It has been weird the last couple days. I actually had some very light spotting on Mothers day ! ? ! and I had moments of that morning sickness feeling. I have been really tired, the other night I was in bed asleep by 9:30pm and slept all night, only to be really tired again the following day.

I have to leave it at that for now, but I will be back again soon. Take Care Ladies, sending positive vibes your way!

Darlings!

Well, again time has just gotten away!

Gem, the forum was down for most of the day... I kept popping back until it was live again!
Had a great day. DS played his 50th Footy Match, sadly DH missed the day as he flew out to Spain for work on Saturday night :( But I have plenty of photos & video for him on his return.

Your right that 14 days after AF is the 'hot spot' for conception - But bear in mind that can vary widley... Google - Conception Calcuator & there are a few different types that will give you the heads up on your most fertile days. I'm lucky enough to have super regular, predictable, clock work cycles. (Not many peope have 6 attempts & 6 pregancies in 9 months! Lol)

Ooohhh tired hey... I love the sound of that! Hehehehe!

Dory - Genuine hope & happiness hey... Go you good thing! That is soooo beautiful to hear! :clap:
And kicks! Real super footballer kicks! Awesome! DH must have been beside himself, not to mention you too! Great to hear your scan went so well too. What were the chances of actually getting a sonographer with compassion & an understanding of your concerns. We need more of her in the world I tell you! Wow, your really getting along now... I'm so so happy for you!!! As for the cooler weather - Its setting in down here in good ol Melbourne finally... A whopping 14 tomorrow Bbbbrrrr!

AFM - 16 weeks 2 days & very very definate movements last night! I could easily feel them with my hand on my "uterine" area and gladly ran around the house with excitement - even if I was home on my own! ROTFL! 15 week check up went great - Doc listened to the babys HB with a doppler & the look of exitement on DH's face took my breath away. A perfect reminder of why I insisted on defeating the odds placed against us in the past. Feeling great, cut back to 2 days at work & very very pleased about that! Boys keeping me busy as usual - Guess it doesnt get any better than that hey!
I have started playing 'get the room ready' Trying not to go overboard, but thats tricky. Once you start, its hard to stop!

Take the very best of care girls - Speak Soon x

Gem - gee I hope those are pg symptoms......My temp has been elevated since BFP - 36.57 on the day of my first BFP and has been pretty eleveated since. I do hope you don't have a virus. However I do agree that pg nausea is much different to usual nausea. I have fingers crossed for you. When was day one of your cycle?

I agree with Dexy - ovulation is "usually" about 14 days into a cycle ( day 1 is usually caluclated if full on bleeding starts before 12 noon, but that also depends on who you listen to) - BUT it differs for each woman and can even differ for individuals in each cycle, even if the cycles are predictable. I always estimated that the BD'ing should start at day 7 or 8 and continue until day 18, depending on what my CM was like. My temps were usually a good guide, spike down just before and then spike at. My cylce lengths always changed, not by miuch but a day or two, and that can mean you miss the opprotunity if you're not taking notice. I have to admit I never really felt comfortable with the "checking of how my cervix felt", not because I am a prude, but more given my circumstances I was worried about inadvertently introducing infection.

Dexy - good to hear your DH got to hear the baby's heartbeat! It is so exciting, I agree. And 50 games for DS is a real milestone. How long is DH away? Spain, I have never been to Spain. Would like to go though. Glad you are "resting" a bit more. I hope you feel the difference. And AWESOMNE about feeling bubs move! It is exciting. I am glad you danced around the house! It is good to be excited and embrace the excitement.

All good here. A little more anxious this week than I was last week. But that's to be expected. Last week was such a high, and this week I had some unsettling dreams on Monday morning, it's the first 5 day week alone and with no appointments, and I am approaching the milestone of Amelia's gestation. Hmm just realised I have 23 weeks in my signature....
So in combination, just feeling a little beleaguered and wondering if these are the last days of this pg. But I have to say, feeling the baby move is a really good couterbalance to those anxieties.

Hi Ladies,

Thought I would drop a post in, I checked in here earlier, but I was sidetracked watching the soccer on the net. Unfortunately, Adelaide lost.

Dory I had light spotting on the 28th but full on from the 29th. So it would be 2 weeks today going by the 28th. I am a little confused because I had some light spotting on Sunday. Mothers Day of all days lol. I have been feeling ok, I only had short lived nausea. From memory, morning sickness didn't start for me straight away last pregnancy.

Glad to hear your doing well. I just want to say one thing though Dory, when you find yourself becoming anxious or worried, try to focus on the highs that you have been feeling to help get you through the week. I know at times, it seems like a week takes a month, but time does go by so quickly during pregnancy. When I catch myself thinking about things that I don't particurlarly want to be thinking about or feeling things that I don't wish to feel, I accept that I have caught on to it before it snowballs and becomes a chain reaction then try focusing on something else. Mostly it works for me, although some days I get so worked up about something that it takes me a bit longer. Your doing an awesome job. Did you get pics or a DVD to keep of your scan? I use to enjoy watching the DVD - anytime I started feeling anxious. Keep feeling those kicks and flips soon enough you will be able to use maltesers as a baby soccer ball :D Glad to see your ticker up and running ! ! !

Dexy, glad to hear that you have cut back at work. Spend time at home doing the things you need to be doing, or taking the time to just relax after that big Mothers Day dinner you put on! Hope Hubby isn't going to be away from you to long. Hows that baby room coming along? I wouldn't be to concerned if you think it might be to early. It's nice to be able to go in there, just to spend some time in there and get a feel of things to come. Just from being in there and thinking about it all, you will get new ideas pop in all the time.

Anyway ladies, Hubby has just got home... time to go, it's getting late :D
Take Care and I will catch up soon!

Gem - thankyou for your words of inspiration. Today is a much better day. Thankfully my morose times don't usually last too long. I am not used to them though, so they seem like eternity. Happiness never feels like an eternity though.