Hi all, I am a new member on this site. I am desperate to hear from others who may be experiencing the same feelings I am at this moment. I lost my little boy over a year ago now. He was 20 weeks and had extensive structural abnormalities but to me, he was perfect. I have since given birth to a beautiful baby boy, also perfect. He really is a dream baby and, with his two older sisters, completes the family. I should be extremely grateful and I am, to an extent, but there is a part of me (a huge part which is affecting my daily existence) that finds it difficult, no impossible, to move on. I dream of my boy all the time and as cliched as it sounds, I feel like I more or less died with him. Do others feel this way? Has anyone else experienced a loss and then an anti-climax after a subsequent pregnancy? I look forward to hearing from others