I am feeling very sad today and really just wanted to talk about my story, so thought I would give this forum a shot!

I am 34 and miscarried naturally 7 months ago. I already have a two and a half year old boy and as sad as I was about the loss of my baby, just thought it was one of those things and was not meant to be. Please don't get me wrong I was gutted.

Four months later I miscarried again. I stupidly did not think life would be that cruel. Again I miscarried naturally and passing the sac was one of the worst things I have ever gone through.

Through, what felt like a million examinations a polyp was then discovered. I ended up having to have an operation to have this removed, the doctors said this could have resulted in the miscarriage. Of course when I came round after the operation I was told that there was no polyp. So I had gone through all of that for nothing. Two days later I was told I had skin cancer on my face and had to have it removed...........yet something else to deal with!

It took me a long time to get myself together after the second loss, all of my sons friends now have brothers and sisters and I really want him to grow up with a little buddy. Most of my friends have now had their second, even friends who weren't trying are now pregnant and my closest girlfriend who was told could never have children is pregnant.

So I am surrounded by babies and pregnant friends. Happy for everyone, but also hard for me. People seem to think that because I miscarried awhile ago that I am ok!

I really thought I was starting to get things together, but this week have done nothing but cry. Yet another friend is pregnant and the child from my first miscarriage would have been born next month...

I feel that I can only get better by getting pregnant, but can't see how that will happen given how sad I am. No one including my husband seems to understand.

Fingers crossed the future looks better xx