I am feeling very sad today and really just wanted to talk about my story, so thought I would give this forum a shot!
I am 34 and miscarried naturally 7 months ago. I already have a two and a half year old boy and as sad as I was about the loss of my baby, just thought it was one of those things and was not meant to be. Please don't get me wrong I was gutted.
Four months later I miscarried again. I stupidly did not think life would be that cruel. Again I miscarried naturally and passing the sac was one of the worst things I have ever gone through.
Through, what felt like a million examinations a polyp was then discovered. I ended up having to have an operation to have this removed, the doctors said this could have resulted in the miscarriage. Of course when I came round after the operation I was told that there was no polyp. So I had gone through all of that for nothing. Two days later I was told I had skin cancer on my face and had to have it removed...........yet something else to deal with!
It took me a long time to get myself together after the second loss, all of my sons friends now have brothers and sisters and I really want him to grow up with a little buddy. Most of my friends have now had their second, even friends who weren't trying are now pregnant and my closest girlfriend who was told could never have children is pregnant.
So I am surrounded by babies and pregnant friends. Happy for everyone, but also hard for me. People seem to think that because I miscarried awhile ago that I am ok!
I really thought I was starting to get things together, but this week have done nothing but cry. Yet another friend is pregnant and the child from my first miscarriage would have been born next month...
I feel that I can only get better by getting pregnant, but can't see how that will happen given how sad I am. No one including my husband seems to understand.
Big hugs to you. It is incredibly hard to get past your own grief when seemingly everyone around you is pregnant. However happy you may be for them, it still makes your heart ache for the little ones you have lost.
All I can say is that time does help. Unfortunately it takes too damn much time, and our angels' due dates are always especially difficult.
I have one of the sweetest DHs in the world, but he doesn't understand the level of my grief either. Obviously our husbands have lost babies too, but I don't think anyone but you can really understand the pain a mother feel.
Im so sorry for your losses xx grief is so hard because everyone grieves in different.ways n different times. That's y we feel so alone.
Being pregnant does indeed help the sting go away of losing two babies but it also brings along its own set of fears n worries that seem to replace it. I'm finding that out atm.
find one friend that u can open up to, even if they don't understand totally. Sharing the burden usually helps you feel less weighed down.
I hope that u get another little babe soon. Hang in there n keep busy if u can
I am sorry for your losses. I understand what you are going through. Its so hard especially when you have to go through it more than once. I have times where the weight of my losses is completely unbearable and then I have times where Im totally fine, so I get what you are saying there. I still cant look at a pg woman or even a baby without tearing up though.
Thank you ladies, it is nice to know I am not alone.
My family lives in a different country to me, so I am wondering if I should seek some sort of counseling. Not really sure if this is for me or not, but wondered if anyone did go down this route and if it helped. I have closed most of my friends out, my fault I know, but as I said they are either pregnant or have had a second and it is just to hard.
Keep changing my mind as to whether I can do this, it's just normal, to it's just to hard, need help!
Reply With Quoteso sorry for your losses
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Still very sad
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