Lizjeesie - It really doesn't matter how long you have known about it. The fact is you wanted this baby so much, and for it to be taken away from you, it really does hurt. It is like your dreams have been crushed. Let me tell you tho, you will have that precious baby, and it will be the happiest day of your life. You will always remember the one you have lost, as it will always be with you. The pain also takes its time to ease, but as I have experienced, the pain is still there, you just seem to move on each day. Each day does get easier. I for one never thought it would, but it does. I have to admit, my losses had changed me in a way I never thought possible. TC hugs. We are here if you need to talk.