Mantaray - thank you for saying my post was well written. It helps to get it all out and helps with the grieving process I feel... certainly helped me straight away. I am feeling more positive about it all now & i am proud of the way i have handled it over the last 3 days...

Maz - aww thank you *hugs*

StarrySky - that is a very wise thing to say...and you're right. Knowing that I can conceive in our 1st month of trying is something special, even though it didnt last, at least we have that knowledge now that we are probably very fertile and shouldn't have too many problems (fingers crossed) for the near near future. I'm so grateful for that.

Milka & Lisa - i'm sorry for your recent losses also *hugs* yes i'm sure they are in a better place definitely...

Scorpiomum - i'm sad i won't be able to be in your bellybuddies thread with you all however i know it wasnt my turn just yet.... its your turn, and i wish you all the very best for H&H pregnancy!

* I have been feeling better today and even though i have my moments, where i feel very sad, i then have moments where i'm feeling so positive and know that one day soon we'll have our little one and it will stick for us... one day when we hold our baby in our arms we'll know that all this happened for a reason.

Yesterday was difficult when I went to the shops by myself and i walked past a young couple with a newborn in the pram and i felt pretty teary after seeing the baby, i guess just my hormones maybe... but i soon picked myself up!!! Carried on with things.... because i know our turn will come around soon...