Hi Renee, I'm so sorry for your loss, I too had been lurking in the ttc thread reading up on your story, each day I would come in to work and look out for your posts, i was devastated to read of your loss. You sound so unbelievably strong, and you are right one day you will be holding your bubs and seeing that it all happened for a reason and thats one of the hardest things to realise no matter how far along the pg journey that you lose your child, I am still coming to terms with that myself. I do sit and think you know if it wasn't for my loss I wouldn't be in the position I am in today, and I can honestly say that that as hard as it is and I much as I want my daughter back, I am probably a better person then I was before my loss. The other thing to think about when you do see couples with newborns is to think maybe one day they were in your or my shoes. I still find it hard to think that, but it knocks a bit of sense in to me.
anyway enough of my babbling, thinking and praying for you hon.