I sweetie - so so sorry for your loss. Like the others said just be kind to yourself and give it time - you will never forget your angel but you will find ways to cope. Thats what we do we cope, we don't forget, i find at times a shed a tear and get really sad etc but i have learned to cope and i always hang onto hope that one day i will get that bundle. I thank counselling is wonderful and it does help.
But i must admit a strong and loving partner also helps and i am sorry yours has not been there for you as he should. Be kind to yourself hun.