I thought after having a miscarriage I would be sadder than I am.
This is my first miscarriage, I have never experienced something like this, losing a baby this early... I guess I am surprised by my total lack of emotion in regards to this loss.
To be honest, I am more annoyed at the blood loss, the complete inconvenience of it all.
Does this make me a terrible person?
I am wondering why I am ok? Perhaps it is because I really didn't have much time to get my head around the fact that I was pregnant.
Perhaps it was because I started bleeding the day after my pregnancy was confirmed by the Dr.
Perhaps it is because I was worried about having 2 babies close together in age; even though it is something DH and I have wanted, the reality of it was a different thing.
Arghhhhhhhh!!! I feel like I am a heartless b!tch