Thanks for your replies.
I just feel so crappy that I am not very upset about losing the baby.
I guess there is that part of me that still "thinks" that there wasn't actually a baby there at all... because every ultrasound I had failed to find a gestational sac.

I guess its correct to say that I was expecting it to happen... but I did still hold out some hope that there would be a baby there after all that happened.
Oh well.

Last night, my little sister called me to tell me that she got 4 BFP's! I am so excited for her!!! She has wanted a baby for so long.
She strange thing is... when I lost Noah, my other sister was 6 weeks behind me with her pregnancy... and now, my little sister is 6 weeks behind where I would have been with this pregnancy.
I have a daily reminder in my nephew of how old Noah would be now, and the milestones he would be achieving... I hope it isn't as difficult to handle when my little sisters baby is here. I just hope and pray so hard that my sister has such a beautiful, happy and healthy pregnancy... I can't wait to be an Aunt again