Thankyou all so so much for your kind words and support.

I have had a very hard road to travel over the last 3 weeks including my 5th admission to hospital tomorrow for my 3rd D&C in 3 weeks !!!!! As I said in another post I certainly don't feel lucky enough to be buying a lottery ticket!!

Still no results on why our angel didn't make it. They tell me they may not find out but it appears stongly that the placenta may not have been strong?? enough.

I am feeling stronger but I am over the back and forth trips to hospital. I have only been home with my DH and kids for 6days as a total out of the last 3 weeks.

DH has told me he he has planned a small holiday for us once we know for sure that this is all over and then we can begin to grieve and heal together.

I also got my scan pictures from our last scan wth our angel and they have certainly stirred some strong emotions.

I have decided one thing though i am not going back to the ultrasound room where i have been going. It seems as though everytime I am in there it is bad news for me or another lady.... Think my aura is trying to tell me something!! ... I just don't feel comfortable going into the room i always feel sad ... maybe it is just the lack of sleep ( nil in 38hrs from continual first stage labour pains ).
Anyhow thankyou all and wishing all those TTC a BFP / and
Em