A year ago today i found out i'd never meet my 1st bubba....

I was at my 12 week scan but bubs was only 7weeks and there was no heartbeat...

I'm now 15 weeks and 2 days pregnant, but finding it really hard to deal with today... my close friend said to me when i called her crying "What does that one matter now you're having a new one" that did it i'm a blubbering mess... Not even my partner understands. It still hurts and it will never stop hurting i feel so... empty, i should already be a mum! Why cant anyone just give me a hug and listen to my feelings instead of telling me to stop crying, think of this bub etc. sometimes you have to cry but i feel like i cant unless i'm alone