Hi Jessey

i am so sorry to hear of your loss honey and the first yr is always so hard on the 12 nov just gone my baby girl should have been celebrating her first birthday as her due date was 12/11/06 but no one remembered not even my DH i feel like everyone has fogoten and like you i feel as though i cant cry unless i am on my own but i no that you should cry whenever and wherever you want as you lost your first baby and no matter what anyone said your baby was growing inside you and you had a special connection that no one can take away you had your hopes and dreams for that baby and for it all to be taken away so you have every right to be upset and your firend shouldnt have really said what she did as its comments like that , that stick in your head but im sure she didnt mean it and as to men they are in a whole different world to us girls my dh cried when we found out about the problems our baby had and cried when i gave birth to her and cried at the funeral but then nothing even a yr on i sometimes cry myself to sleep i wait till my DH is asleep and then i let it all out i just cant help myself i think its natural for you to be feeling the way you are i hope you get through this day.

Take care honey

munchy xxx