Ahhh, thanks guys. I just needed to get it out before I my brain exploded. Lizy - with regard to your last comment, I am certain I'm not suffering from depression etc, (I checked and did the quiz on the beyond blue website to be sure !!) but I think its REALLY hard to take the emotion out when its about your child. I spend ALOT of quality time with Bailey and make sure he and I have plenty of fun activity time as well as lots of simple cuddles and tickles and kisses constantly - so I do enjoy him dont get me wrong (its just that the whole brace hip thing is always there at the back of my mind IYKWIM)

Corelly - your message REALLY helped, how wonderful it is to be understood, I think your kind words are what I needed, and I felt a bit of peace about it all when I read your message, thankyou And you are right, it will be a VERY special day when we see our precious kids walk for the first time, I really look forward to that (I'll take crawling for now though when it happens hehehe )