And then there was 4 - Mateauz journey with Cerabal palsey

[Haydies]

Maz, have you ever thought that maybe Mateuz and Wilhelm too, were given to you because you would be the best mum to nurture them and love them, despite or maybe because of their difficulties?

Truer words have never been spoken.

My grandmother was a very spiritual person and told me that not only do we choose our lives paths before we enter this world, but we also choose our family and the roll that they play. Your children chose you because they knew you would be the best person to help them through this life lesson. You are their guardian Angel walking this earth.

I have cried more reading your story than I have in a long time. Both through the pain and heartache as well as the joy of hearing that Mateuz would survive. Words can not thankyou enough for sharing your story, it has touched me greatly.

Big big to your entire family.

[Lulu]

Maz, its getting sooo close to Mateuz's first birthday, and you have been reliving all the past year in this brilliant de-brief.

So I wanted to TELL you to remember to be extra, extra kind to yourself. Leave the bloody overlocker alone for a night and have a glass of wine and a bath instead! Keep on crying and letting it all out. You can get really productive with crying too. When I'm reliving stuff from deep down, I try to take deep breaths in and on the OUT breath I visualise black sand exiting from my lungs and the next breath (sob) a clear blue one. Yeah I'm nuts but it works for me.....

Love ya chick xoxoxoxo