I don't know if this is the right place to put it. But once again I come to trusty BB for advice, support and to let off steam.

My 19 month old is very active. People constantly comment on it. She has always had sleeping issues. We finally have the through the night wake ups mostly sorted. But now I can't get her to sleep before 830 and she is awake at 6am or earlier. Rarely a day sleep.

But my problem is the tantrums, I rang my mum in tears today while standing on side of main street trying to put DD in her car seat. She screamed, cried went stiff as a board, resisted for 10 mins. People were staring (not that I am normally worried), but this time they thought I was hurting her. I had to step away from car so people could see I wasnt doing anything wrong. I can't force her into seat as she is so strong I think I would brake her. I can't get her to sit in the trolley in supermarket, she won't hold my hand, I can't reason with her. She understands "no" but continually does things looking at me knowing she is naughty. I've tried being calm, I've yelled (at my wits end). I just don't know what to do. Feel like I don't know who she is and today I just keep crying. I'm ashamed to say and I know I don't really mean it. But I just want to get away from her. I'm not cut out to be her mother. She eats good fresh food, only water or milk. No juice. Definitely no lollies.

So obviously I'm totally lost in the motherhood journey. So any advice would be welcomed. Thanks in advance