Jus, first of all hun a huge hug for you Well done on getting all of that out and down here. I'm sure just doing that is a huge help to you.

Secondly, sleep deprivation it the worst. That's why they use it as torture treatment. You could have so easily just described my days and nights lately. Although Abbey is up for 4 or 5 feeds over night. It is so very draining to keep a 6 month old entertained in the day. Not like they will watch a dvd.

I don't think you sound neccesarily PND, I think more that you are very sleep deprived and things are just piling up on you. It happens to the best of us hun. It's amazing what a good sleep or break from the babies can do for you. Do you have a gf or your mum or MIL that can come over and give you a hand. Even just looking after DD so you can have a shower and eat something. I know if I don't get to shower it really get's to me. And you can bet when you haven't showered someone will knock on the door.

Can you of a daytime just take the phone off the hook and go and lay down on your bed with bub ? Put her on the boob and just relax, You will both probably fall to sleep and that's a good thing. You are both bonding, feeding and resting at the same time. Even if it's only for an hour or 2 you will feel so much the better for it.

Do you get out of the house often ? Maybe a walk in a nearby park with a friend or catching up with some other BB girls. I'm in Sydney too, not sure where you are though.

Not sure really what else to say hun other than that your feelings are validated. You sound perfectly normal to me, if your not, than neither am I

Take one day at a time and I promise it will get better