Thanks Junglemum and Rachael - sadly, I can't work from home as it is a shop and we need to staff the shop and while it's building we can't have staff in there all the time instead of us. DH is doing most of the work, but I feel bad for him as he wants to spend time with DD too. I am only working P/T but that is hard enough... I was OK with working before I had her - I worked up to the day I gave birth, but since having her I just want to be with her all the time and feel like I should be... I just can't shake the heartache and the guilt of not being here all the time. Whenever I see mummies come into the shop with their bubs I feel very jealous that I can't just take the year off to be with her. On top of that I don't know what we are going to do when DH goes back to work - I guess i didn't really think this through very well last year ??!! DH has said a few times that we shouldn't have started the business and had a baby at the same time, but we are in so deep that we can't turn back now... I am very fearful of ending up with PND because of it, but I know that I need to try and be strong and power on through...