Hi Ladies,

Thanks for your support. I had a big think about everything last night and a talk to DH... We have decided that we will do "full" days at the shop each, that way we can have "full" days each at home with DD. We have worked out that I will do 2.5 days and he will do 3.5 days and we will have one day off a week as a family. I have to try and remember that I am leaving her with her dad not with a stranger and that he is just as capable of caring for her as I am.. As she is no longer BF (due to supply and latching issues early on) he is just as capable of caring for her as I am. I know that he really wants to spend this time with her as he will be going back to work in November and has a very full on job so won't be home much - I can't take that away from him despite how I feel about leaving her myself. We are a family unit and both deserve time with our little cherub. I think if I work full days rather than half day every day of the week it means I will be able to put my head in whatever space I am in (either business or bub) that way I can fully enjoy whatever it is that I am doing. I love our business and I want to make it successful. I need to not loose sight of why we set the business up in the first place - to allow for future flexibility for when our children go to school (I didn't have that when I was in corporate work). Also, I think that as I am no longer BF my AF is on it's way back so that is really playing havoc with my emotions right now - it would never be easy to be separated from my bub, but I know that EVERYTHING feels a zillion times worse right now as I am emotionally unstable. I feel this is the right solution for all of us and I just need to be sure not to loose sight of what we are doing and where we are headed... Thank you for your support (and hugs). No doubt I will have another meltdown - I just need to be reminded of the above.