You're way over-thinking things lol! Just kidding, it's very natural, I did the same . I have a 3 year age gap between my first two because I just didn't feel ready yet to have another bub. I wanted to wait until I felt like I wanted another one itms? I had a fear that if I fell pg before I felt ready that the bub may not feel wanted. Probably a silly fear, but that's the way I felt!

Sounds like you're not ready just yet. Keep thinking it over and I'm sure you'll feel ready eventually .