I always knew that I wanted 4 children, had considered having 5, but now that I have 4 I know I am done - so much so DH has had the chop LOL, but I admit that I didn't know if I would ever feel *finished* and that it would be a hard decision to make, but I am fine with it now and know that it is the right thing, even though I *knew* it was kwim? I still love the idea of being pg and having a baby and all that, I don't think that feeling ever goes away, but I don't have that deep yearning that I did when I only had 1, 2 and 3 children so I guess deep down inside I always knew that 4 was the right number for me and now that I have it I don't need to feel like that anymore.

That said if by some reason of fate that we manage to get pg again (and if we do we shall be calling the baby Houdini ) we wouldn't be unhappy at all - surprised but not unhappy.