I have 3 children. DS1 is 4 DS2 is almost 2 and DD is almost 11 weeks old.

When i had DS1 i was a bit of a home body absolutely thrilled to be a mum and happy to just do what he needed when he needed it. Got ourselves into a wonderful routine (i'm a routine person, got to have it as a coping mechanism), he slept well, self settled and when we went out on occasions it didn't interrupt the routine too much.

DS2 came along and there were a few more activities going on, mini maestros class, mothers group, catching up with friends who have since had children but I somehow still managed to get in a routine. I was happy with the sleeps and the quality of them that he was getting and coped well when we were out and about.

Now with DD there is kinder, mini maestros for each of the boys, mothers group still, appts that are scheduled or last minute because of a sick child who knows life is just so much more busy. As well as a busy life DD has had silent reflux to contend with so at times she's so unsettled, i then end up having to interrupt a sleep she so desperately needs and then it takes ages to find where i am with her in a bit of a 'feed, play, sleep' setting. At this age that is only a thought in the back of my mind as i know she's still so young but it helps to understand what she might want and when she wants it.

Our week really isnt that busy but it's busy enough.
Monday the two boys are in FDC.
Tuesday is a nothing day.
Wednesday DS1 has kinder in the afternoon.
Thursday DS1 has mini maestros at midday.
Friday DS2 has mini maestros at 10am.
But as you can see it's all over the place.

I suppose i knew it was going to be like this but i do stuggle with the fact that DD is dragged here and there, i then get stressed when i can't get her to sleep and i have a 4 & 2 year old hanging off my legs, i need to get dinner done, i haven't had lunch, i'm so tired and i'm just ready to explode.

I know i'm not the only one to expereince this so the ones who know what i'm talking about how do you do it. How do you begin to be ok with the little interrupted sleep the baby gets. I feel so repsonsible for her not getting what she needs. I am struggling with the chaos at the moment. Will it settle? Will DD be able to get what she needs?

I'm not sure what this is ladies? A vent? Maybe i just need reasurance that i'm not the only one going through this craziness.

TIA i'm just trying to find my place as a mother of 3 and being good at it.