Ugh, being forced into toilet training William has been a *****. He's 2yrs 4 months and he's doesn't talk, so how am I supposed to know when he wants to go?! I'm afraid he's gonna be in nappies when he starts pre-primary! Currently sitting next to him for the past 15 mins waiting, and I just know I'll take him off in a minute and he'll do something!

And that's my next issue - he doesn't 'act' like all these other 2 yr olds that I've seen on tv shows, IRL, and doesn't even really do anything that an 12 or 18month old does. He doesn't have a vocabulary of (minimum I was told) 150 words. His vocabulary right now is 2. 'Mumum' and 'again'. They are the only things he says.
He doesn't pick his clothes, he doesn't jump (he rocks side to side while trying to dance, that's bout it), doesn't climb stairs, doesn't put things in a bin, doesn't walk anywhere unless he's at home, ILs place, my dad and grandmothers house or at daycare, doesn't like to draw, or paint, doesn't want to be read to (although he'll open a book and turn the pages and look at the pictures), doesn't repeat anything if I say it (tried today to say 'Kat' and he just ran around laughing), doesn't know anything on his body and doesn't point to it on our bodies, doesn't 'play pretend' and rarely does what I ask of him (only thing he does is pick up things when I say 'Ta for mummy') He's obsessed with grabbing my hair (something my brother does too when he's over here or we're over there), looking into our eyes, building blocks in the same color and stacking them up in the same sizes.

Secretly I'm worried... Really, really worried. My brother is mentally disabled, my dad is 'slow' (ugh, I hate saying that!) and I'm scared he's inherited it too... That was my biggest concern having a boy, that he'd inherit that gene and that I am gonna have to do everything that I did when my brother was young. I'm having anxiety attacks over these thoughts that I don't eat for days (not great when I'm supposed to be expressing for Katherine)

Anyways, he's been sitting on here for almost 20 minutes so I best get him off cause I said I'd only do it for 10 minutes. I think I'm going to stop doing this until we're BOTH ready to do it. Right now, I just don't feel ready in myself to do it.

No need to reply - I needed to get this out - I just wish I knew what to do