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I'm starting to feel quite uneasy about leaving Oskar when this bubs decides it's time to come along. I have someone who can look after him and even come to our place if it's the middle of the night so he can stay in his bed... but now it just doesn't feel right. I don't want to leave him, I don't want him to wake up and discover both mummy and daddy aren't here. I just don't like how it feels He's been with me since the moment he was born and I like that feeling. Now, I don't know what to do! It really makes me REALLY want to stay home but we just don't have the money for a midwife for a homebirth - even though I personally would've liked to have gone down that path. Has anyone got any suggestions?? Maybe ways for me to feel better about this??