I would suggest the same as Kelly, I have had some issues with "pushy" opinions from the hospital this time around & if weren't for the maternity coalition and Kelly I would be giving into hospital "policy" rather than what I would want for this birth.

Also, where are you located? Some cities have a maternity group called birth trauma where women with traumatic birth experiences, or who are traumatised by their birth experiences can come together & heal. *hugs* I am in Brisbane & have been to the one here & it has helped me move forward towards a more positive birthing experience this time around. I went because like you, I felt my choices had been taken away from me during labour.