I remember your story mum2 and can understand why you were considering going straight for a c/section. I applaud your strength and courage at choosing a vbac (I'm assuming that is what you have chosen from your last response )

While my story is different I know that next time I want to try for a vbac. I know this time will be different as the circumstances will be different, my preperation will be different I will be more informed. I might end up with a c/section again but at least I know that I tried....

I don't think you failed, you were failed, that is the system failed you in soooo soooo many ways... I hope you find the peace and healing you deserve with this birth