I know what you mean Kerrie. I felt a bit ripped off with Gemma's birth. as I really wanted a vaginal birth. She was also posterior and I only got to 9cm and she got stuck and after 21 hours of labour, I just couldn't do it anymore. But your absolutely right, shes here and healthy and thats the main thing. I just feel so torn I guess. And I guess I feel that by having a scheduled c/s I am some how 'cheating'.IYKWIM. Even though a c/s is by no means cheating as the recovery is longer and its major surgery. I just obviously still have issues with Gemma's birth.

Thank you both for your honest replies.....it means alot that other people can relate.