Hey Babe!

I will find piece with it! It is just another step and I feel like I am coming to the end of this journey thank goodness.

I have actually found it remarkably easy to get the notes (Don't know if that is because of the hospital or not!) I rang them up and asked how to go about it, they sent a form out to me on which I had to detail what information I was after. I wrote that I wanted all of my notes from the labour and post natal care of both of my children (ie the dates). They then wrote back saying that they had found the info and how much it would be for the photocopying etc and that the copies would be sent once they received the cheque.

I posted the cheque on Monday (I think) and received them on the Friday. The hospital have been fantastic and have not given me any hassles with regards to getting them. I listed my reasons for wanting them as understanding the drug and procedures administered to me as I am looking to study in the field of midwifery and thought I should know . Of course that was not the main reason, It was mainly to help me deal with things.

I have actually been really impressed with the level of detail etc in the notes.

I would say if you are trying to understand the way in which things happen then it would be a very good investment babe!

I really spent a good portion of yesterday crying - but I think it was another part of the process for me to let go of the hurt and feelings of sadness, and today I am feeling much better - alot lighter about it all and able to look at them more level headed now!

If there is anything I can do to help you hun let me know! Even if you want to PM me to vent or debrief about it.