Hi Marydean - I can relate to that dissociation from body in a way; I was petrified giving birth the first time (natural birth), it made me feel like my body was totally out of my control, brought back a traumatic memory, and I never touched or looked at my stitched episiotomy post-birth. "In shock" was listed on my medical record re giving birth; no mention of anything else emotional or any checks (that I know of) in the hospital of my emotional state.