i had a second degree tear with my first too... wan't in alot of pain after it (i was quite numb!) but just felt a bit of pressure there for a few weeks especially if i stood for too long. i've got 6 weeks to decide, no doubt im going to change my mind another 10 times by then! i am going to keep an eye out for those 2 books that were mentioned tho and a friend has a tens machine i can use if needed.. thanks everyone, keep it coming! i'm getting excited about it all (not the pain tho!)