Danielle, I am really glad to hear that you had a good experience with the Epi and that Oscar was alert and fed well, that is really good to hear a good story as opposed to bad ones.

I agree that pain is related to fear. although I also have to admit that as the pain started to intensify I started getting scared. Lucky for me the labor progressed so fast I didn't have time to get even more scared.

My pain was starting to get really bad and the midwives were talking about waiting another hour and a half before having an internal done to check progress, I was seriously considering pethadine when they did the internal and told me how far I had left.

Because I then started getting an uncontrolable erge to push, the internal got done then, and I was 10cm's already. This could be the reason I didn't submit to more pain relief.

I do feel better about next time though.

now the fear I have is not of the pain, it's the taking a baby home