Only you can decide if a c/s is right for you. I had one after a pretty rough 12hr labour myself. Surprisingly, despite hecoming very ill and being in a coma I was still able to care for my newborn son. It's amazing what we're capable of when our babies need us. I can only assume if a c/s goes well, the only difference between a vaginal delivery and a c/s (physically) is that the pain is in your belly, not your vajayjay.

My physical recovery was quite remarkable. I strongly suggest you consider hiring a doula or independant midwife to accompany and support you, should you opt for a natural delivery. She will be there to protect you from any kind of mistreatment, and you will be safe.

Personally, I find it heartbreaking that a healthy woman who has previously proven her ability to birth as nature intended has been treated in such a way that would lead her to choose major surgery due to her fear of a repeat performance from caregivers. I'm so sorry you suffered such an ordeal. I too was traumatised by my hospital stay, for similar reasons. This is only my personal opinion, but as someone who was left with no other option except an emergency c/s, I urge you to explore all your options of self protection before electing for surgery. I am now being told I will never have a VBAC, despite being young and fit. It seems once you've had one c/s, most caregivers will discourage any attempt at a natural birth. They do not support my preference to labour naturally in the event of a subsequent pregnancy.

It's a difficult choice. Educate yourself as much as possible and seek counsel re your previous trauma. You may be able to regain your confidence and lessen your anxiety. Remember, you've done it before, you can do it again. That said, we support you no matter what your final decision is.

Congratulations on your pregnancy!