I was EXACTLY the same, and that could be why I waited 7 years for number 2!! I had extreme fear beforeboth births, but the second time I decided to try to let go. During the whole labour I repeated to myself "this will all be over soon, I won't be like this for ever". Sounds weird but it helped me through. Just knowing that I wouldn't be in labour forever, and reassuring myself that it was all ok, really helped wonders. Good luck, and remember it WILL be over soon and you can get on with life with your new bubs!!!!!!! And believe it or not, it will be a distant memory, and the memory of pain will fade completely!! xo