Hi Tara

I would've replied to your thread earlier except I didn't see it. I am familiar with the spaced out feeling you describe. In particular I had problems coming to grips with the normal flow of time again after I gave birth. In my case this lasted weeks/months. At the time I just thought I wasn't coping. It wasn't until a couple of years later when I described my experiences to my new GP and she said it was pretty clear to her that I'd had post-traumatic stress disorder. My labour was long and very poorly managed, and while I had the support of my husband I was alone in the dark hole of labour and believed it was never going to end. I had a pretty horrible out of body experience in the worst of it. I was so traumatised I left my body - I'm wondering if your experience in transition was similar to this.

In a metaphysical sense, if your consciousness left your body and didn't ground back in properly, you would expect to feel spaced out and sort of out of touch with physical reality. This is something that ppl who meditate frequently learn how to do (ground back into your body). That this didn't happen after a few hours, tells me perhaps you were dealing with a level of physical shock.

If you google the words post natal stress disorder you will find some interesting reading which might shed some light on the way you have been feeling. Or possibly not. I hope you get some answers in your journey to heal this experience as it sounds as if you still hold some pain. Perhaps some time with a holistic counsellor or bodyworker might help?