i went into it with all the positivity in the world

started labour spontaneously at 42 weeks

i laboured at home in water for 29 hours with absolutely no pain relief, not even a dispirin, doppler showed perfect heartbeat for baby

some rare condition, something with "bands" in the name, happened to my uterus.
(the equivalent of the uterus muscles acting like a boa constrictor around the baby)

i could have laboured for a week, and my dilation and contractions were never going to progress to a stage where a baby could be born

so
  • an ambulance ride,
  • offered a c-section,
  • told them, do everything else possible to avoid c-section first
  • six hours of medical intervention in the labour ward,
  • and then finally having to admit defeat (too dangerous for baby to continue and we were'nt getting any more dilation and contractions were still inconsistent)
  • and submit to an emergency c-section with complications
- my natural birth was a distant memory.

i am so crushed

i never thought i would have some goddamm rare condition happen to me in labour, i just wanted to have a boring normal average delivery.