Oh, Lil Aussie, that is so terrible! I'm glad we got our med notes but really they are useless anyway. I also had a lawyer say we could win, but after reading and trying to make sense of the notes we decided against it. They were written to the hospitals' advantage and not what I believed to be a true indication of what really happened. We have also decided to try and move on (we are trying for #2!) but its difficult and scary. All I can say is be angry about what happened to you, I certainly still am, but make the most of what you do have. I was lucky, even though I nearly died and have been in and out of hospital, I do have my beautiful little boy. Maybe a way for you to move past this is to send a letter to your doctor, even if it is a long time later, let him/her know its not forgotten. I did this and at least feel I have made a stand and not just let it go. Hope this helps and am sending you a big cyber hug!!