If I didn't have SO there I'd just do it on my own. Its probably what I'd prefer. I'm one of those people who stresses about how others are coping more than myself. I've never been one for the support thing and am used to do things on my own. I tend to cope better that way. This is with physical type things.

But when I need advice or a sook or a shoulder to cry on I sometimes even find it hard to talk to my friends and family about that stuff. I'm used to being the one who they do that to and don't wont to worry them with my problems. Stupid isn't it.

I've told SO if he wants to be there (and we are still together) he can be.