You poor thing having to go through such a traumatic experience... that midwife sounds like she it completely in the wrong career- silly woman. Birthing mothers do not need people like that around them during labour. It is amazing how hearing that cry can make you forget all the pain and disappointment. I found it really helpful to post in the birth debriefing thread on here, and it was a few months after her birth, as I found that there were things that kept playing on my mind after her birth- you might find it useful as well in the coming weeks.
at Too posh to be pushed!! Enjoy your little princess and your babymoon!