Thank you for sharing your story. You brought a new life into this world. Your body grew a new person and then made way for his safe passage. You are an amazing birthing woman.
I will not tell you how to feel, but I will say I admire you.

Light a candle for yourself, and for the experience you lost. Grieve over those expectations. Give yourself time and space to heal.

Welcome to baby Finn. He was roared earthside with the strength of a lioness.