Today I was at home, and I gave DS2 four bfs over the day, but every single feed he's needed a meal or a bottle too.

And I'm officially dropping down to one or no expresses per day at work.

As in, I'll still aim to do one a day, but if I'm too busy, or if I want to take a break rather than do a pump, then that's ok. I am giving myself permission, with the knowledge that DS2 is eating great, is 95-99pc and I have done a good job nourishing him til now.

And I'll keep giving him bf before and after work, as needed, but I am acknowledging that this is now more about bonding and cuddles than actual milk.

And that too is ok.

I keep reminding myself that this is ok, and this is the natural progression of things.

I'll get there.

I will.

I'm sure ...