*unsure where to post, please move if it needs to*

**please, no 'breast is best' bashing, i am fully aware of how good breast milk is for my babe, and i am feeling badenough about this whole thing as it is, so please be kind to me..**

So, my son is 9 and a half months, still breast fed, but im thinking we may need to end our journey soon (unless i can fix the problems another way..
he is boobing ALL the time, through out the day, he is foever tryong to rip my boobs out and have a feed, he doesnt really do solids well for me (and when he does he prefers to do it himself - not from a spoom or anything- so i guess thats good) but for my MIL (i work 3 days a week hes usually there for 8-10 hours) he eats really well for her, (hes on formula there) and he sleeps amazing there too.. she gets him down for like 2 hours.. im lucky to get 30 mins , if that.. (unless ilay there and he will sleep for ages) but i have a 4.5 year old and a houseto attend to i dont hav time to lie around for hours with him anymore..
then theres night time...
so i put him down in his bed, and he will sleep anywhere from like 30 minsto a couple of hours, depending on if i have done all i need to do (washing up, bathed and organised dd ect ect) ill feed him back to sleep or i will just get into DDs bed with himand then i stay there all night (dd sleeps in with DH .. in our big comfy bed.. did i mention how comfy it is? lol) and ds feeds all night, on and off my boobs, rolling over me climby and pinching and throwing himsel around feeding from me all night, i just sleep with no shirt on and get woken constantly to him doing that , theres no tears (from either of us) that way but the last 1-2 weeks hes starting pinching , like really hard, either my opposite boob or the nipple and it really hurts, and im not getting enough sleep to continue doing it like this.. its not working anymore..

im considering weaning him, i think hes so clingy (oh and i can hardly leave him i am generally constantly holding him) hes such a booby baby, but i think im past it, andiknow its no about me, but its starting to affect my mental state, i am starting to get really resentful towards him (oh god. i am a terrible mother)its supposed to get easier as he gets older, not harder.

help me. someone, point me in a direction that can get this fixed.
well thatsme being summoned by the 2 kids.. tia ladies x