It sounds really tough. My DS would never take a complete BF and would come off crying every time I tried to attach, so I know it's really hard. I was then expressing and feeding by bottle before deciding to EE at 9 weeks. We did the reflux meds for awhile but it turned out for us it was a milk protein allergy. I read that you have already explored that. Initially I was told by a dietician to eliminate eggs, milk and wheat. I then reintroduced one at a time which is how we discovered it was the milk.
I guess I just wanted to give you a hug as I know these issues are really hard and there is so much emotion involved in deciding how to feed your baby. I was close to PND with how affected I was. Speak to the professionals for guidance and also listen to yourself amongst all of the views out there.
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