it sounds like you're being horribly torn in different directions at the moment.

i agree with fionas - you don't HAVE to make the decision right now. even if you do need new bottles, you can get them after the baby is born if you need to. it sounds like it's just putting extra stress on you at the moment that you really don't need.

you still have lots of time to research & speak to the ABA if you want to. being really well-informed might give you the extra confidence you need to give it a go.

i also don't think you have to see it as failing if you stop or give it a try & move to FF. one way or another you will be feeding your baby, that's all that really matters.