Trish, the advice you've been given is great advice so there is not much more I can add. Only that it could be worth seeing a good LC before you resort to drugs that you are uncomfortable with. I'm sure Barb would be able to recommend someone in your area. I do want to say though, that I KNOW you can do this. You are not starving your baby and your history and determination show me that you absolutely can do this. If need be, get a different paed. Don't be bullied into something you are not comfortable with. You are strong and determined and very capable. Follow your instincts and you'll be fine. Just make sure you keep up your fluids and get as much rest as you can (please don't laugh, I know you have 5 kids!). Best of luck hun, I hope it clicks really soon for you. Hang in there.