Thanks Jodi.....I have been thinking about Maz as she had 4 so might hunt her down for an cyber-ear bash.

Mel - just reading your siggy ..."They don't care how they were born, they're just glad they're here"......might have to repeat that to myself daily! It would be a VBAC3......the first was FTP after 17 or 18 hrs of labour, induced to the max and only got to 4cm and Bailey was a posterior baby. I actually remember asking DH if I could go home...like having a bad day at work! With DS#2 got to 5cm after about 15 hours and then he pulled back up out and turned posterior and it was all over for me. So FTP again! I was an emotional wreck and felt so...........don't know the word for it. I had a wonderful Middie who was 6 months preggas herself and coaxed me into an Epi to get relief from the pain. (For both I only used gas....which iteself is an interesting experience! lol ) The morning after my 2nd c-section my OBGYN came to see me and told me to be proud of myself for working so hard and not to beat myself up as it was not my fault. I am thankful she said that to me as I held my chin high after that!

I see my ONGYN next week....I think......will have a chat to her about my feelings. She is perfect as an OBGYN for me, does not beat around the bush or plant roses when the truth is needed! Maybe it is just hormones atm messing with my head.......

xxxx