Nyrad - i haven't been through this, but keep in mind - pychological needs ARE medical needs. having been through the IVF rollercoaster, i can understand the mindset you're in at the moment. i have to and fro'd many times. ultimately, i want to try for a vaginal birth but i'm not opposed to a c/s if there is a need - and that need might be simply a psychogical need as this pregnancy progresses. i'm prone to anxiety and panic attacks, so if it is going to make it safer for myself and our little Gremlin, than i'll have a c/s.

i guess at this point, i really want to have some part of this that i have "control" over kwim??

make the decision based on what you feel is right. you'll have the people saying vaginal delivery is the only way. it IS the way nature intended - but it's not the ONLY way - the ONLY way for you is the way that is most comfortable you to bring your baby into the world