I haven't been hearing how great Caesarians are on this site Starrrsky, I get more of an impression that if you can avoid them you do. I don't hear anyone singing their praises and that worries me as much as your apparent negative experience.
I can't think of what to say to your comments to have anything sort of positive for you.
My highlighting this article was for those who have to wear their experience as some sort of substandard medal because of the overwhelming view of others from various standpoints. That they don't have to have their birth "graded" because of what they didn't experience.
I know this place can be supportive for many, and I'm sure talking amongst some here might be useful but if things really bite at you like they appear to then seek someone who can help, with enough insight into experiences like yours.
Even with what you have gone through, I don't think you deserve any of your pain.
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