I thought I'd be happy though! Lol! I am looking forward to going back to work, and knew that this was part of that. Charlie is incredibly social, and loves playing with other kids, so while he will probably love it and thrive, I guess for me it's feeling like it's all happening already, and I'm not quite ready to let go. I tell myself that in 2 months I will have to let go, I won't have a choice, but now, I feel horrible and protective of what's left of my time with him.

Then again I'm sure if you talk to me again in a month when I've had a few days to myself, I'll wonder why I didn't do this sooner.

Won't I?